Monday, November 16, 2009
PERFECTION...What does it mean???
This was a GOOD weekend for me - did lots of thinking - and something came clearer to me!
Self Esteem
Perfection
These are two areas that I suffer - have always had very low self esteem and the feeling that I need to be perfect. If I am not perfect I just don't try or give a damn then I allow myself to shut down - and true happiness with myself escapes...
Well.... Sitting at the Ribfest this weekend - I did a lot of people watching!! I saw people of many colors, styles and shapes. I saw people that were confident - happy!! And while really observing them - I was thinking about PERFECTION.. Or this stupid idea of perfection that I have Concocted for myself. That I can not be REALLY happy unless I am perfect... Perfect weight, Perfect clothes - etc. BUT, really what is PERFECT!!! As I looked at 1000's of different people I realized that not one of them were the SAME!!! So why do I spend so much energy and time trying to be LIKE!! Instead of just being??? Now this isn't rocket science - and there is really no reason why this hit me now. Except that maybe I am finally taking those steps towards being happy - I mean REALLY HAPPY!!
I suppose it is just one more step toward my FUTURE!!
Make it a GREAT Day!! M
Monday, November 09, 2009
Heavy Heart... So Sad!!
We all have been friends for well over 25 year and she was like a second Mother to me, I will miss her so much - I just wished I could be there with Ed and the whole family!! Since I had surgery recently - I have NO time off from work - and NO extra $$. I might think about going to see them for Thanksgiving - we have spent many Holidays together over these years!!!
Please keep the Dupree/Elliott and King families in your thoughts and Prayers!!
Rest in Peace Sweet Louise!!! XOXO
Sunday, November 01, 2009
YES I am alive and WELL!!
Surgery was a SUCCESS - I was told all pathology reports were normal and there wasn't any Cancer involved. They did remove both Ovaries and F-Tubes. The Cyst itself was about a golf ball size - it did attach itself to my intestines and bladder. So it was a BLESSING and good thing this all came to light and we got it out of there.
My First two weeks of recovery were a BLUR - I was tired/Still am and in Pain!! Hurt the worst to get up and down from a lying down position. Needless to say I slept and functioned upright for a lot of the time.. LOL
My Mom was here a lot and helped so much!!! My Cousin Karol was a GODSEND she stayed with me over nights and hung out during the days... Trey also spent one night here as my go to Man!! One thing I got RE Hooked on Young and the Useless.. LOL Had lots of Visitors - My Photographer friend Heidi from Tampa came over and brought me a huge pan of YUMMY Lasagna - it was enjoyed by EVERYONE!! Cristy, John and the Girls came over to St. Pete to camp one weekend so that I could see them... It was GOOD MEDICINE!! Thank you!!
I went back to work 1/2 Days on week 3 - it was all I could do and glad I had made that decision. The 4th week I just played it by ear - couple days I left around 3ish.. and now I am pretty much back to FULL schedule.. I go for my last follow up with the Surgeon on Wed. I expect to be released to FULL DUTY!!! I am looking forward to getting more active and back to the Gym - I went back to Weight Watchers this weekend... Ready to rid myself of about 60 lbs!!
Last weekend we had a Cook out in Scottie's honor at Christi and Steve's house - to christen the new deck and sauna.. I tortured Trey with some updated Photos.. Isn't he handsome??
This weekend was Halloween fun filled - spent some time with the Family and my niece Tracy.. HA HA
Anyway - very sorry for the delay in posting..
I have taken some steps to get along with my FUTURE - I am so blessed with a Fantastic Family and the BEST Friends in the world. I take FRIENDSHIP Serious - you have to be a FRIEND to have a FRIEND..
Love you guys.. M
Sunday, September 27, 2009
So Blessed!! Update 24 hrs till Surgery!!
Just thinking about my Life.. So BLESSED!!
Sure there are a couple things that I wished didn't happen or that may of happened differently - but OVER All, I would not CHANGE A THING!! I am so very BLESSED and LOVE the life I have and the Life I am going to Continue to have!!! So BLESSED!!
My Mom and Dad always provided for me - I always had a nice home to live in and Food on the table. Surrounded by LOVE and SUPPORT - When the Dog Died I was blessed with a Brother (Longtime family Joke) - He is a Fantastic Brother, Husband and Father - I am so very PROUD of him. My SIL Kathy is AWESOME and Trey well what can I Say there!! Except that guy is my HEART! LOL So BLESSED!!
I grew up with my Aunts and Uncles - and ALL My cousins - and now being taken care of by my Cousins Kids. I have friends that have never even met some of their families - but we are so involved and always surrounded by LOVE.. SO BLESSED!!
I have been Blessed with AWESOME Jobs thru the years - things that I truly LOVE and some of my Very Best Friends even today are because of those jobs.. We have share so much thru these 25 plus years!!! So BLESSED!!
My Photography - WOW I can capture memories FOREVER (some of my Family Gripe) but when it counts those photographs are our TREASURES!!! BUT, I have to say that Photography has given me something much more Valuable - it has given me some of the BESTEST Friends in the WORLD. We are in contact Daily - have been lucky enough to share ups and downs with many - Experienced the Miracle of BIRTH.. WE have gone on many trips - just being ourselves... And even sometimes they haven taken GOOD care of me.. LOL You all are in my HEART and I Love you all hope you know how much!! So BLESSED!!
I sit in my HOME - that as a single working woman - purchased Furnished and continues to pay for. Granted times haven't always been easy Money wise - and I have used CREDIT when I shouldn't of used it - continued to keep an excellent credit score. At least I have something and THINGS to show for what I have spent.. Not many can say that!! A lot of people these days are struggling with Finances - they cant pay bills and they may have NOTHING to show for that DEBT. I cant say that ... So BLESSED!!!!
I was never blessed with Children of my own - but I can not say that I don't know what it is like to be a Mother - my Friends have allowed me into the lives of their Children - I have been loved with all their hearts. I love being Miss Margie, Aunt Margie, MiMi, Auntie M - or anything else they choose to call me. I have been in the lives of so many children that are now Young Adults and I am so very PROUD of them.. So BLESSED!!
I have my Faith - my Love for GOD and his love for me - how can I ever go WRONG!!! So BLESSED!!
I will close with one of my Favorite Bible Verses:
PSALM 23
The Lord is my Shepherd...
THAT'S RELATIONSHIP!
I shall not want...
THAT'S SUPPLY!
He maketh me to lie down in green pastures...
THAT'S REST!
He leadeth me beside still waters...
THAT'S REFRESHMENT!
He restoreth my soul...
THAT'S HEALING!
He leadeth me in the paths of righteousness...
THAT'S GUIDANCE!
For His name sake...
THAT'S PURPOSE!
Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death...
THAT'S CHALLENGE!
I will fear no evil...
THAT'S ASSURANCE!
For thou art with me...
THAT'S FAITHFULNESS!
Thy rod and thy staff they comfort me...
THAT'S SHELTER!
Thou preparest a table before me in the presence of mine enemies...
THAT'S HOPE!
Thou anointest my head with oil...
THAT'S CONSECRATION!
My cup runneth over...
THAT'S ABUNDANCE!
Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life...
THAT'S BLESSING!
And I will dwell in the house of the Lord...
THAT'S SECURITY!
Forever...
THAT'S ETERNITY!
Thank you to my FRIENDS & FAMILY for LOVING Me for who I am - I will continue to LIVE with my HEART and be the VERY BEST FRIEND Possible... It is just WHO I AM!!
Lots of LOVE and HUGS, M
Tuesday, September 08, 2009
Home from my BD Bash!!!
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Sunday, August 30, 2009
Sunday Evening Wind Down...
Thursday, August 27, 2009
Little catch up Friends
I was so blessed with Great Friends - Cristy and John had me over this weekend - to hang with them and the GIRLIES... Had a BLAST - just nice to take my mind off of things for a FEW Minutes here and there... Cristy treated me to a Pedicure was heaven and Brewster Ice Cream.. YUMMY!!! So thank you guys so much - I love you lots!!!
Monday - I called to make an appointment at the Specialist (So I thought) was set for Thursday @ 2:00 - then yesterday afternoon I get a call from their office said oh I listened to your message from Monday and realized you wanted - you cant do that without a referral - So then I had my DR. send the reports to him and he will review and call me for an appointment.
In the meantime I still had not gotten the blood work results... So today when I called for the 3rd time she faxed them to me and TO THE SPECIALIST -which was supposed to be YESTERDAY... SO I am still waiting for an appointment!!!
BUT there is good news DR. Margie analyzed her own blood results and the Ovarian Cancer marker was well in the NORMAL RANGE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! So a little bit of RELIEF!!!
Stay tuned - keep Praying... LOVE YOU ALL...
PS. GO BUCS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Friday, August 21, 2009
Happy Friday Friends...
Thursday, August 20, 2009
Margie Update - Keep Praying!!!
Thursday, August 13, 2009
Day 10-11-12 & 13 NO WAY!!
Sorry friends - Been down with a FLU Bug!! Finally went to the Doctors yesterday got some antibiotics and they did an Ultrasound of my Stomach/Abdm. and Pelvis just to rule out the side pain I was having... No results yet..
I promise to be back to my daily posts... Right now my biggest MIT is to catch up from missing 2 days at work... YIPPPEEE!!!
Have a Great day - Live with your HEART!!
XOXO, M
Sunday, August 09, 2009
Day 8 & 9 - Pooped!!
I had a Nice weekend - Spent it with Friends and Family - Not much better than that!!!
Sunday - Mom, Lou and I went for a Ride to Sarasota - St. Armands Key - and Lido Beach!! It was HOT HOT HOT, but in and out of the shops helped. Late lunch at The Columbia - Sangria, and the yummy 1805 Salad........ On the way home - we visited the Sarasota Elks Lodge. Then we stopped off to see Aunt Jeanne on the back home. She is doing really GOOD!! Thank God and THANK you all for your Prayers!!
Friday, August 07, 2009
Day 7 Round 3 - Good Morning
Thursday, August 06, 2009
Goodnight Day 6 - Round 2
Had a Really GOOD Day........... Post more in the AM!!
Time for sleep!!!
XOXO
Good Morning Day 6 - Round 3
Do you want today to be an AWESOME Day ??? YOU are in CONTROL - do not let outside factors effect how you feel today.... Make it GREAT!!!!
Happy to report that my Aunt Jeanne came thru the surgery with flying colors - she is sore and at this point just hoping for less pain and more movement in her shoulder. They were not able to do what they had planned 100% - but with lots of therapy.. She will be A-OK!!!
Today's MITs:
1. Call and Cx Subscription
2. Dinner with Mom/ Lou and Company in town
3. Check in on Aunt Jeanne
Work MIT's:
1. Issue those Riders
2. 2 Final Bonds
3. Get out all bond that bid on Tuesday
4. Money Stuff
5. Cross off my ToDO List
Busy day at work.. LOL
Hope that you all have a BLESSED Day... Lots of LOVE, M
Wednesday, August 05, 2009
Good Morning Day 5 -Round 3
I am trying to get back into my Daily Routines/Habits and my LISTS!!!!
I look back at June and July - even though I accomplished a lot of thing in BOTH months - I felt better about it in June... WHY??? Because it was all NEW, Because I Blogged 2 times a day, Because I make my MIT's - Wrote out my GOALS... It was a BIGGER Sense of accomplishment!!
Today Project #3 begins - the deck will be pressure washed and the area around the deck prepared... So I will be sharing with you the progress!!!
Today's MIT's
1. Paid all Bills
2. Cancel Subscription that is going unused
3. Listen to a Conference Call via Phone
4. Pray for Aunt Jeanne - Surgery
Work MIT's
1. Do the Riders for 2 bonds
2. Money Stuff
3. MY TO DO LIST
Make it Great Day - Live with your HEART!!! Many BLESSING, M
Tuesday, August 04, 2009
Day 4 Round 3!!
Some progress was made today... Work I got more done - little better focus (not 100% BUT better)!
I came home today at lunch - met with Scott and Elliott - they are going to be working here tomorrow!!! Project #3 underway - power wash the deck and get rid of the overgrown / leaves - so NEW Mulch can be put down.. YEAH!! I will put the finish on this weekend!!
I came home after work- cleaned the bathroom - mopped the floors in both BR and Kitchen - ran the Vacuum - cleaned litter box - all trash to dumpster!!!
Then................ I created a GMail account: margiesfp@gmail.com this is to be used for my personal emails. I am in the process of cleaning out my inbox.. I had over 2,000 not opened emails.. Tonight I sat her and UNSUBSCRIBE from prob 50 companies.. Deleted the Mail.. I have it down to under 1000 and will do more tomorrow!! I also have deleted the two old emails and the AOL email from my Phone and Itouch - I will only get notifications to the Touch from my Gmail account. Once I get the Roadrunner business account: margie-sfp@tampabay.rr.com cleaned up - this will be used only for business related emails.
So friends another night of PROGRESS!!!
Please keep my Aunt Jeanne in your thoughts and Prayers, she is having surgery tomorrow on her shoulder at 1:00 pm... She is my ROCK and a great example of how I have lived my LIFE!!! I would not be who I am without her love and support all my life!!! TY!!
I will post my MIT's in the Morning..
Hugs and Love, M
Sunday, August 02, 2009
Good Night Day 2 - Round 3
Have a GOOD Night - Hugs and Love, M
Saturday, August 01, 2009
Day 1 ROUND Three.. WOW
Tomorrow - I will get back to my daily MIT's and Goals!!! Have a BLESSED Night!!
Thursday, July 30, 2009
Mission Accomplished - Thanks Daph!
With Donations from a lot of GREAT Friends - they were able to put FAMILY First and spend some quality time at the Beach together!
I am blessed that my Photography has given me the opportunity to meet so many LOVING - Big HEARTED Friends - My Life would be so DIFFERENT without each and every one of you!!
Wednesday, July 29, 2009
OH MY Day 29!!
My friends are cracking me up!!!! Asking me quesitons on FB knowing I cant answer.. THANKS. Started a Free Margie Group - SO FUNNY!!! Love you guys!!!
Work was UGH - had a major BLUNDER and it could of been really bad.. I was so upset!! BUT, Seems that the same blunder was done by five others - and it will be re bid in August.. PHEW!!
OK.. NEED sleep more posting tomorrow.. Nitey Nite Friends.. LOVE YOU!! M
Tuesday, July 28, 2009
Day 28 - Good Night!!
So will use it to my advantage.. LOL
Tonight I listed the rest of the Garage items on Craig's List - if no movement by Friday - It is going to Hospice!! I will be able to pull the car in the Garage again!!! WOOHOO
Headed to bed - sweet dreams friends - I am going to try to get back to posting twice a day - did much better doing my MIT's and Chores that way..
Sweet Dreams - Thankful for fantastic friends and Family.. XOXO, M
Monday, July 27, 2009
Good Night Day 27!!
Today was a CRAZY Busy day at work - one that had so many loose ends. And to tell you the truth it was driving me nuts.. Hope that tomorrow will be a better day and I can get thru the piles of papers on my Desk.
The good news from today was that I took a couple steps back on TRACK!!!
I read my Bible Verses and tonight I cooked dinner and ate at the Dining room table again!! :-)
My Friend Michelle's little Man turned 4 today - Cody has touched my Heart from Day one and she shared his phone number so I could say HBD to him... He was CUTE and SHORT - he had presents to tend to. Thank you Shell - I know that today wasn't easy for you!! Love you Friend!!
Tomorrow AM - Will do my H2O and Oxycise - Read my Bible Verses.
MIT's:
1. Unload Dishwasher
2. Dust furniture
Work MIT's:
1. Billing and Accounting
2. Work thru my TO DO LIST
3. FILING.. Yes I have some again!!! UGH
Hope that you all have a Blessed day.. Thank you for your FRIENDSHIPS!!! XOXO, M
PS. For an Amber update - generous people are still coming thru - tonight another Cash Donation, Zoo Tickets and water park!! I am praying that Amber is feeling well enough to enjoy this time with her family... Love you guys!! M
Sunday, July 26, 2009
Good Night Day 26 Round two..
Saturday, July 25, 2009
Rest In Peace....
I was so touched that the photo that Pastor Johnson picked out to be used for today's service was one that I had taken of him at Kai's Baptism - It just shows you that everyphoto that we take it is SPECIAL... The GreatGrand Son's wanted to go up and see GGD - and I was able to capture this photo!! :-)
I am working on the video of the Service today -so that the family and friends out of town that didn't make it to FL can see the love and the lives that he as touched!!!
I'm pooped - headed to bed!!! Making a PROMISE to start back with my MIT's and Habits on MONDAY!!
XOXO, M
Friday, July 24, 2009
One thing on my Mind today...
I am going to link you to a blog of one of my FRIENDS - She and her family have been on my mind all day - and I wanted to share her JOURNEY!!
UPDATED: 7-25-09 The Schmidt family has arrived at the Beach - Daphne got to meet up with them today.. Makes my HEART Happy to know that this Family vacation is happening!! XOXO
Daph - hope you don't mind me using this photo!!
If you have a few extra dollars please donate to:
Pay Pal Account: daphnejerkins@gmail.com - please specify if you want it to be put towards anything special. Daphne was able to get a Condo at the beach for them donated - for the whole week!!! God Bless you...
This is Amber's Blog:
http://family.kentuckystudio.com/2009/07/23/hello-my-name-is-amber-and-i-have-a-degenerative-brain-disease/
Please read Ky's story too - they have been so much - All Prayers accepted as well!!
Thank you for taking the time to learn about The Schmidt's - Lots of Love, M
Thursday, July 23, 2009
Good Night Day 23
Wednesday, July 22, 2009
Day 22... For my Sis!
Today was a TIRED Day - got lots done at work!! Have a BUSY Day ahead tomorrow!! I like it that way...
This morning I could not get out of bed - once I did - I did my Oxycise/ then went back down again... YEP that kind of day... And here I sit watching the Rays game and NOT Sleeping like I should be!!
Pretty much ate everything tonight - not a very well balanced evening!! Tomorrow is another day!
I will get up in the Morning/Water & Oxycise - Read my Bible Verse.
My MIT's:
1. Empty Dishwasher I ran tonight
2. Get breakfast/lunch packed
Work MIT's
1. Get to office by 7:30
2. Manage my To-Do-List
Good Night and SWEET Dreams, M
Tuesday, July 21, 2009
Evening of Day 21 Round 2
Today is a day of REST and getting back on Track - had a GREAT Day at work!! Lots done - went out for lunch (walked) had a nice rain storm and was forced to take a FULL Hour.... Enjoyed it - sat outside and the rain on a Tin roof was AWESOME!!
I went to the Grocery Store - unloaded and cleaned Litter Box - all TRASH to the Dumpster!!
Just been relaxing tonight - been running for the past few days!!! Missing the Cousins - but nice to not have to BE ANYWHERE tonight!! :-)
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Tomorrow will be back on TRACK with my Habits and MIT's... I need support and a KICK to get back to it!! Love you all, M
Day 21 ALREADY!!!
Monday, July 20, 2009
Happy DaY 20!!!
Sunday, July 19, 2009
Sunday July 19th..
Today is Aunt Yvonne's Day - we will be having the Party to Celebrate her Life this afternoon!!
We should have about 40 people, enjoying good memories and just hanging out!!!
Headed to Church this morning at 10 and then will come home and get ready to go - Picking up the Greek Salads on the way!!! :-)
Yesterday was another day with the Cousins!!! I dropped my car off to get the Brakes done (OUCH) - Then Mom came and got me took me to Karols - we all went to the Beach - the waves were big and it was fun out in the water!!! Been to the Beach more the past 4 days than the past 2 yrs.. LOL - Then we went to a few stores to get decorations for the part today.. We finally had dinner about 8 and I came home and CRASHED. LOL
Hope everyone has a BLESSED Day!!! XOXO
Thursday, July 16, 2009
What day is it?? LOL
Wednesday, July 15, 2009
Good Morning Day 15 - Recap Day 14 Rd 2
I am out the door so this is very QUICK!!!
Headed to the chiro this AM then busting it at work today - as I am off the rest of the WEEK!! WOOHOO
My Cousin Karen, Pat and Jenny made it safely to town yesterday!! Today my Uncle Monte, Cousin Melissa her girls, Cousin Greg arrive - we are going to have a GREAT Time this weekend - just remembering our Aunt Yvonne and living LIFE like she would of like us to do!!!
Have a GREAT Day to anyone that happens to check in!! XOXO, M