PERFECTION...What does it mean???

I feel GOOD today!!!

This was a GOOD weekend for me - did lots of thinking - and something came clearer to me!

Self Esteem
Perfection

These are two areas that I suffer - have always had very low self esteem and the feeling that I need to be perfect. If I am not perfect I just don't try or give a damn then I allow myself to shut down - and true happiness with myself escapes...

Well.... Sitting at the Ribfest this weekend - I did a lot of people watching!! I saw people of many colors, styles and shapes. I saw people that were confident - happy!! And while really observing them - I was thinking about PERFECTION.. Or this stupid idea of perfection that I have Concocted for myself. That I can not be REALLY happy unless I am perfect... Perfect weight, Perfect clothes - etc. BUT, really what is PERFECT!!! As I looked at 1000's of different people I realized that not one of them were the SAME!!! So why do I spend so much energy and time trying to be LIKE!! Instead of just being??? Now this isn't rocket science - and there is really no reason why this hit me now. Except that maybe I am finally taking those steps towards being happy - I mean REALLY HAPPY!!

I suppose it is just one more step toward my FUTURE!!

Make it a GREAT Day!! M

Heavy Heart... So Sad!!

Last night Heaven got another angel... Louise passed away in North Carolina after a Brave fight with Cancer - she was so strong and so strong in her love for God - she is with him now and I know HAPPY and Pain free.

We all have been friends for well over 25 year and she was like a second Mother to me, I will miss her so much - I just wished I could be there with Ed and the whole family!! Since I had surgery recently - I have NO time off from work - and NO extra $$. I might think about going to see them for Thanksgiving - we have spent many Holidays together over these years!!!

Please keep the Dupree/Elliott and King families in your thoughts and Prayers!!

Rest in Peace Sweet Louise!!! XOXO

YES I am alive and WELL!!

Not sure if I even have any followers to my BLOG and to those 1 or 2 - Let me just say I am sorry for my absence!!

Surgery was a SUCCESS - I was told all pathology reports were normal and there wasn't any Cancer involved. They did remove both Ovaries and F-Tubes. The Cyst itself was about a golf ball size - it did attach itself to my intestines and bladder. So it was a BLESSING and good thing this all came to light and we got it out of there.


My First two weeks of recovery were a BLUR - I was tired/Still am and in Pain!! Hurt the worst to get up and down from a lying down position. Needless to say I slept and functioned upright for a lot of the time.. LOL


My Mom was here a lot and helped so much!!! My Cousin Karol was a GODSEND she stayed with me over nights and hung out during the days... Trey also spent one night here as my go to Man!! One thing I got RE Hooked on Young and the Useless.. LOL Had lots of Visitors - My Photographer friend Heidi from Tampa came over and brought me a huge pan of YUMMY Lasagna - it was enjoyed by EVERYONE!! Cristy, John and the Girls came over to St. Pete to camp one weekend so that I could see them... It was GOOD MEDICINE!! Thank you!!


I went back to work 1/2 Days on week 3 - it was all I could do and glad I had made that decision. The 4th week I just played it by ear - couple days I left around 3ish.. and now I am pretty much back to FULL schedule.. I go for my last follow up with the Surgeon on Wed. I expect to be released to FULL DUTY!!! I am looking forward to getting more active and back to the Gym - I went back to Weight Watchers this weekend... Ready to rid myself of about 60 lbs!!

Last weekend we had a Cook out in Scottie's honor at Christi and Steve's house - to christen the new deck and sauna.. I tortured Trey with some updated Photos.. Isn't he handsome??


This weekend was Halloween fun filled - spent some time with the Family and my niece Tracy.. HA HA
Anyway - very sorry for the delay in posting..

I have taken some steps to get along with my FUTURE - I am so blessed with a Fantastic Family and the BEST Friends in the world. I take FRIENDSHIP Serious - you have to be a FRIEND to have a FRIEND..

Love you guys.. M

So Blessed!! Update 24 hrs till Surgery!!

Just thinking about my Life.. So BLESSED!!

Sure there are a couple things that I wished didn't happen or that may of happened differently - but OVER All, I would not CHANGE A THING!! I am so very BLESSED and LOVE the life I have and the Life I am going to Continue to have!!! So BLESSED!!

My Mom and Dad always provided for me - I always had a nice home to live in and Food on the table. Surrounded by LOVE and SUPPORT - When the Dog Died I was blessed with a Brother (Longtime family Joke) - He is a Fantastic Brother, Husband and Father - I am so very PROUD of him. My SIL Kathy is AWESOME and Trey well what can I Say there!! Except that guy is my HEART! LOL So BLESSED!!

I grew up with my Aunts and Uncles - and ALL My cousins - and now being taken care of by my Cousins Kids. I have friends that have never even met some of their families - but we are so involved and always surrounded by LOVE.. SO BLESSED!!

I have been Blessed with AWESOME Jobs thru the years - things that I truly LOVE and some of my Very Best Friends even today are because of those jobs.. We have share so much thru these 25 plus years!!! So BLESSED!!

My Photography - WOW I can capture memories FOREVER (some of my Family Gripe) but when it counts those photographs are our TREASURES!!! BUT, I have to say that Photography has given me something much more Valuable - it has given me some of the BESTEST Friends in the WORLD. We are in contact Daily - have been lucky enough to share ups and downs with many - Experienced the Miracle of BIRTH.. WE have gone on many trips - just being ourselves... And even sometimes they haven taken GOOD care of me.. LOL You all are in my HEART and I Love you all hope you know how much!! So BLESSED!!


I sit in my HOME - that as a single working woman - purchased Furnished and continues to pay for. Granted times haven't always been easy Money wise - and I have used CREDIT when I shouldn't of used it - continued to keep an excellent credit score. At least I have something and THINGS to show for what I have spent.. Not many can say that!! A lot of people these days are struggling with Finances - they cant pay bills and they may have NOTHING to show for that DEBT. I cant say that ... So BLESSED!!!!

I was never blessed with Children of my own - but I can not say that I don't know what it is like to be a Mother - my Friends have allowed me into the lives of their Children - I have been loved with all their hearts. I love being Miss Margie, Aunt Margie, MiMi, Auntie M - or anything else they choose to call me. I have been in the lives of so many children that are now Young Adults and I am so very PROUD of them.. So BLESSED!!

I have my Faith - my Love for GOD and his love for me - how can I ever go WRONG!!! So BLESSED!!

I will close with one of my Favorite Bible Verses:
PSALM 23

The Lord is my Shepherd...
THAT'S RELATIONSHIP!

I shall not want...
THAT'S SUPPLY!

He maketh me to lie down in green pastures...
THAT'S REST!

He leadeth me beside still waters...
THAT'S REFRESHMENT!

He restoreth my soul...
THAT'S HEALING!

He leadeth me in the paths of righteousness...
THAT'S GUIDANCE!

For His name sake...
THAT'S PURPOSE!

Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death...
THAT'S CHALLENGE!

I will fear no evil...
THAT'S ASSURANCE!

For thou art with me...
THAT'S FAITHFULNESS!

Thy rod and thy staff they comfort me...
THAT'S SHELTER!

Thou preparest a table before me in the presence of mine enemies...
THAT'S HOPE!

Thou anointest my head with oil...
THAT'S CONSECRATION!

My cup runneth over...
THAT'S ABUNDANCE!

Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life...
THAT'S BLESSING!

And I will dwell in the house of the Lord...
THAT'S SECURITY!

Forever...
THAT'S ETERNITY!

Thank you to my FRIENDS & FAMILY for LOVING Me for who I am - I will continue to LIVE with my HEART and be the VERY BEST FRIEND Possible... It is just WHO I AM!!

Lots of LOVE and HUGS, M

Home from my BD Bash!!!

Just wanted to say that I am home safe from my Birthday Bash in the Mountains with my GOOD Friends... We had a BLAST and I promise to post MORE pics and give the overview..
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And today when I came home from my Trip - I had a BIG, Heavy package for my BD!!! It was a so cool to find out that Daphne my Friend in AL - coordinated this SURPRISE!!! 20 plus friends from all over the US - pulled together and bought me a VERY Fancy Coffee Pot - Coffee Pods (Decaf and Hot Chocolate) a AWESOME Picture Frame and a M Cookie and a nice big Trevis Tumbler with a M on it... SO SO COOL!!!

Hope you all have a GREAT Evening - Be Blessed!!! XOXO

PS. Keep the prayers coming - I have my appointment with the Specialist tomorrow at 1:30pm!!

Sunday Evening Wind Down...

Even with Storms in your Life... There is BEAUTY and GOD is GOOD!!!

Hello Friends,

Not a whole lot to report Medically... Actually NOTHING.. LOL I called the Specialist on Friday just to follow up - was told that my reports were on his desk - he was at a Conference and would return Monday - once he looks them over - his secretary will call and set up an appointment.. WHATEVER!!! I did tell her that I would not be available Thurs- till after the holiday - Why is my TIME not as IMPORTANT... UGH!

This is going to be a GREAT week - I was bummed (but Understood) when my Friend Marnie said she was not going to be able to make the trip to the Mountains. BUT, everything happens for a REASON - she was able to get a job for this week.... GET THIS in Brandon/Riverview (what 45 mins away) - so the GREAT news is that I will get to see her Tues and Wed Evenings - she will get to see my house and meet Cory the Wonder Cat.. I wished the others could get to meet her and hang out - but I will be SELFISH and say I am HAPPY I get some time w/ her!

Thursday I will be heading to Nashville and 4 of us will be hanging out an awesome cabin in the Smokey Mts... Will be a FANTASTIC getaway!!! More about the trip later..

Hope everyone had a GREAT weekend... Be Blessed and LIVE with your HEART!!

XOXO, M

Little catch up Friends

Sorry I have been quiet - just not a lot to post!!!!

I was so blessed with Great Friends - Cristy and John had me over this weekend - to hang with them and the GIRLIES... Had a BLAST - just nice to take my mind off of things for a FEW Minutes here and there... Cristy treated me to a Pedicure was heaven and Brewster Ice Cream.. YUMMY!!! So thank you guys so much - I love you lots!!!

Monday - I called to make an appointment at the Specialist (So I thought) was set for Thursday @ 2:00 - then yesterday afternoon I get a call from their office said oh I listened to your message from Monday and realized you wanted - you cant do that without a referral - So then I had my DR. send the reports to him and he will review and call me for an appointment.

In the meantime I still had not gotten the blood work results... So today when I called for the 3rd time she faxed them to me and TO THE SPECIALIST -which was supposed to be YESTERDAY... SO I am still waiting for an appointment!!!

BUT there is good news DR. Margie analyzed her own blood results and the Ovarian Cancer marker was well in the NORMAL RANGE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! So a little bit of RELIEF!!!

Stay tuned - keep Praying... LOVE YOU ALL...

PS. GO BUCS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Happy Friday Friends...

Took this in North Carolina a few year back - I love pictures of PATHS - it give me STRENGTH and keeps me CALM...

Just a quick update with not much to UPDATE!!!

I called first thing this morning to get the appointment with the Specialist - and well the offices are closed on Friday... GO FIGURE!!! Anyway I will call again on Monday.

My Good Friends Cristy and John have invited (ok well I invited MYSELF) over for the weekend - so I am heading to Orlando after work today - will be back sometime on Sunday. Just felt a change of scenery would do me good - Shay has a Riding lesson in the morning and I have been wanting to see her ride for a while now!!! I am so blessed to have GREAT Friends...

Thank you all for your continued Prayers, Love and SUPPORT!! I know I have some work ahead of me - but I hope that you all are stuck with me for a LONG WHILE...

Hugs and Love, M

Margie Update - Keep Praying!!!

First off I want to thank my Family and Friends for Loving me, for caring about me and most of all PRAYING for me this past week as I have been faced with some Medical Challenges...

Just to give you the whole story in one place - I will do it here!!

Last Wed - I was throwing up and had a pain in my Right side (had Flu Symptoms) but was scared that my appendix was bursting - so I went to the Drs.(those that know me know I must of been REALLY REALLY Scared)LOL She thought it was the FLU gave me some antibiotics - and was going to send me on my way - I did mention to her that from time to time my Side did hurt.. So we went ahead and ordered a Ultrasound... The results did show Gallstones and also a "Mass" on my Ovaries. They wanted me to get an MRI with and without contrast - that took place Monday and Tuesday.

Today - I was told that I needed to go to a specialist - OBGYN - Of course me who doesn't ask questions said .. OK - and then just let my MIND Play with me like usual!! Thanks to Julie - I called back the Drs. office and made an appointment to speak with my Dr. to discuss the findings and get this figured out. Hear his words and NOT MY MIND.. Glad I did!!

I do have a Golf Ball (hate golf) sized cyst on my ovaries - pretty much 100% sure that it needs to come on out and be tested... Then we will hit the next hurdle - ONCE I have the answers!! I must and will need help from my friends - to TAKE Each STEP as it comes and NOT get ahead of myself.. I can DO IT!!

And.... the gallbladder has some stones - he said least of my worries.. CRAP. LOL BUT, the abdomen showed my Liver, Spleen, Pancreas were all normal.. So will take that as good news RIGHT???

So tonight I will have a couple Corona's - call and make my appointment in the morning... Steps - they did a full blood draw tonight - Hey I'm getting good at this needle stuff.. LOL

I have a Vacation weekend planned over Labor Day - and as of this VERY Moment it is SO ON!!!! Did ask the Doc about it and he said he didn't see any reason why not!!

Again thank you for your love and support... I need each and everyone of you right now!! Love you and don't want to ever feel like I am alone... I know that I am NOT!!!

LOVE YOU, M

Day 10-11-12 & 13 NO WAY!!

Have I really been gone that long!!!

Sorry friends - Been down with a FLU Bug!! Finally went to the Doctors yesterday got some antibiotics and they did an Ultrasound of my Stomach/Abdm. and Pelvis just to rule out the side pain I was having... No results yet..

I promise to be back to my daily posts... Right now my biggest MIT is to catch up from missing 2 days at work... YIPPPEEE!!!

Have a Great day - Live with your HEART!!

XOXO, M

Day 8 & 9 - Pooped!!

Good Night Friends!!

I had a Nice weekend - Spent it with Friends and Family - Not much better than that!!!

Friday Night was Movies, Dinner and Ice Cream with Karen and Dana!

Saturday - Saw Karen and Dana (2 days in a Row) Garage Sale - and then had a nice afternoon at Kathleen and Johns - Swimming in the pool and playing with Heather's GUYS!!


Sunday - Mom, Lou and I went for a Ride to Sarasota - St. Armands Key - and Lido Beach!! It was HOT HOT HOT, but in and out of the shops helped. Late lunch at The Columbia - Sangria, and the yummy 1805 Salad........ On the way home - we visited the Sarasota Elks Lodge. Then we stopped off to see Aunt Jeanne on the back home. She is doing really GOOD!! Thank God and THANK you all for your Prayers!!

Sweet Dreams everyone! Hugs, M

Day 7 Round 3 - Good Morning

TGIF Friends!!!

Today is a Day that I request Prayers and Positive thoughts for many of my Friends who have struggles in their hearts !

Leaders don't create Followers - the CREATE more Leaders!! Be a LEADER..

I did pretty good with my MIT's Yesterday !!!

Cx the Subscription - Yeah

Dinner at the Elks

Work:

My To Do list had a lot of RED Ink - meaning thing are getting CROSSED off!!

Today's MIT's:

1. Balance Checkbook

2. Dinner and Movie with Karen (I hope that we get together more often)

Work MIT's:

1. Accounting Issues

2. Filing

3. Work some more on the TO DO LIST

FOCUS FOCUS FOCUS!!!

Have a BLESSED Day!! XOXO, M

Goodnight Day 6 - Round 2

Ok fast post - Sweet Dreams

Had a Really GOOD Day........... Post more in the AM!!

Time for sleep!!!

XOXO

Good Morning Day 6 - Round 3

Good Morning!!!

Do you want today to be an AWESOME Day ??? YOU are in CONTROL - do not let outside factors effect how you feel today.... Make it GREAT!!!!

Happy to report that my Aunt Jeanne came thru the surgery with flying colors - she is sore and at this point just hoping for less pain and more movement in her shoulder. They were not able to do what they had planned 100% - but with lots of therapy.. She will be A-OK!!!

Today's MITs:

1. Call and Cx Subscription
2. Dinner with Mom/ Lou and Company in town
3. Check in on Aunt Jeanne

Work MIT's:
1. Issue those Riders
2. 2 Final Bonds
3. Get out all bond that bid on Tuesday
4. Money Stuff
5. Cross off my ToDO List

Busy day at work.. LOL

Hope that you all have a BLESSED Day... Lots of LOVE, M

Good Morning Day 5 -Round 3

Believe it or NOT - a MORNING Post from me!!!



I am trying to get back into my Daily Routines/Habits and my LISTS!!!!


I look back at June and July - even though I accomplished a lot of thing in BOTH months - I felt better about it in June... WHY??? Because it was all NEW, Because I Blogged 2 times a day, Because I make my MIT's - Wrote out my GOALS... It was a BIGGER Sense of accomplishment!!


Today Project #3 begins - the deck will be pressure washed and the area around the deck prepared... So I will be sharing with you the progress!!!


Today's MIT's
1. Paid all Bills
2. Cancel Subscription that is going unused
3. Listen to a Conference Call via Phone
4. Pray for Aunt Jeanne - Surgery


Work MIT's
1. Do the Riders for 2 bonds
2. Money Stuff
3. MY TO DO LIST


Make it Great Day - Live with your HEART!!! Many BLESSING, M

Day 4 Round 3!!

Good Evening Friends!!!

Some progress was made today... Work I got more done - little better focus (not 100% BUT better)!

I came home today at lunch - met with Scott and Elliott - they are going to be working here tomorrow!!! Project #3 underway - power wash the deck and get rid of the overgrown / leaves - so NEW Mulch can be put down.. YEAH!! I will put the finish on this weekend!!

I came home after work- cleaned the bathroom - mopped the floors in both BR and Kitchen - ran the Vacuum - cleaned litter box - all trash to dumpster!!!

Then................ I created a GMail account: margiesfp@gmail.com this is to be used for my personal emails. I am in the process of cleaning out my inbox.. I had over 2,000 not opened emails.. Tonight I sat her and UNSUBSCRIBE from prob 50 companies.. Deleted the Mail.. I have it down to under 1000 and will do more tomorrow!! I also have deleted the two old emails and the AOL email from my Phone and Itouch - I will only get notifications to the Touch from my Gmail account. Once I get the Roadrunner business account: margie-sfp@tampabay.rr.com cleaned up - this will be used only for business related emails.

So friends another night of PROGRESS!!!

Please keep my Aunt Jeanne in your thoughts and Prayers, she is having surgery tomorrow on her shoulder at 1:00 pm... She is my ROCK and a great example of how I have lived my LIFE!!! I would not be who I am without her love and support all my life!!! TY!!

I will post my MIT's in the Morning..

Hugs and Love, M

Good Night Day 2 - Round 3

I'm POOPED!!!

Today - Finished Garage - Went to Walmart - Mom and I went to the Elks for Breakfast - went and got my Hair Cut - went to Michael's - went to Publix - went to Big Lots - came home - unloaded Groceries - went to the Dump - came home finished the last of the Office Boxes - PULLED CAR IN THE GARAGE!!! - Cooked Dinner - Cleaned Kitchen - Spread fertilizer on yard- Primed the Pump got the Sprinkler System working - Showered (FINALLY)!!! Now I am working on my Recipes for the Exchange that Daphne is organizing!!! PHEW No wonder I am TIRED!!!!!!!!

Sweet Dreams Friends - I will take a fresh look at my TASKS and GOALS - and get this month going in the right direction!!!

Have a GOOD Night - Hugs and Love, M

Day 1 ROUND Three.. WOW

Ok so we will pretend that July only had 30 days.. OK DEAL - Can't believe I didn't post yesterday - that was my FIRST Miss in 63 days.. Not to SHABBY!!!!

Today was a Garage Day - I am 90% complete - by tomorrow night the Car will be back in it's HOME!! I will take some pics tomorrow to show you the COOL Cabinets and Shelving I bought today - LOVE Home Depot. LOL

I knew I didn't want to sit home tonight - and was either going to the Casino or try to find tickets to the Ray's Game - which included a Concert by Daughtery!!! So at 2:30 I looked on Craig's List - made a couple Calls quickly showered and drove to Tampa to pick up the Tix - went and got my Cousin Karol and off we went - game started at 4:08 and we MADE IT!! BTW, this was much easier on my Pocket book than the Casino would of been..

Here are a COUPLE of Pics and VIDEO!!

Tomorrow - I will get back to my daily MIT's and Goals!!! Have a BLESSED Night!!

Hugs and Love, M

Mission Accomplished - Thanks Daph!

The most important post of the Month - Daphne (AWESOME Photographer in AL & my BB -XOXO) was able to get in a COUPLE photo's of the Schmidt's (Our GOOD Friends) - I shared their story a couple of days ago!!

With Donations from a lot of GREAT Friends - they were able to put FAMILY First and spend some quality time at the Beach together!

I am blessed that my Photography has given me the opportunity to meet so many LOVING - Big HEARTED Friends - My Life would be so DIFFERENT without each and every one of you!!

Sweet Dreams - Love you, M

OH MY Day 29!!

Ok............

My friends are cracking me up!!!! Asking me quesitons on FB knowing I cant answer.. THANKS. Started a Free Margie Group - SO FUNNY!!! Love you guys!!!

Work was UGH - had a major BLUNDER and it could of been really bad.. I was so upset!! BUT, Seems that the same blunder was done by five others - and it will be re bid in August.. PHEW!!

OK.. NEED sleep more posting tomorrow.. Nitey Nite Friends.. LOVE YOU!! M